“For a moment, I considered this option. Nothing was something. What might lie on the other side of life?” Remarkably Bright Creatures
This is for the moments that feel like you’re just here. Nothing insta-worthy is happening, nothing drastic is happening it’s in the regular moments moments that we need to be the most present.
You know those moments that feel like…
why am i here?
why am i doing this?
does this even matter?
am i even making progress?
Those are the moments that we see the movement and the Glory of God the most. These specific moments. The moments that feel as if the world around us is closing in, the moments that feel like our purpose is drowning in a sea of doubt. These are the moments that God shows out for us. These are the moments that hope shines through in the midst of the mundane.
These are the moments where being present produces fruit in our lives.
I have struggled with being in the moment (especially the mundane moments) all of my life. I grew up in a chaotic environment (not necessarily physically chaotic but dramatic & emotionally chaotic) my nervous system has been built for chaos. It’s almost as if drama is something I’m attracted to because of how I was hardwired growing up. I’ve spent the last four years of my life reframing my thoughts, laying these chaotic moments at the feet of the Lord, and really figuring out who I am when it’s just me.
No social media.
No noise.
No outside opinions.
Just me and my thoughts.
That’s when it gets scary, that’s when things feel like my world is turned upside down when I don’t have any vices to run all I have is this moment, my thoughts, my bible, and my tear-soaked prayers.
I’ve been working for the past almost three weeks to build a life and a business outisde of the noise of social media. Is it fear? Yes. Is it healthy? Maybe. Am I figuring out how to do it? Everyday.
I want to create a business that thrives on presence, a business that thrives on purpose, a business that thrives on being in the moment. I want a business where the women who are called to me, they can take space. I assume that’s why you’re reading this, you’re ready to take space.
You’re ready to become.
You’re ready to do.
You’re tired of living in the shadows. What purpose does the shadow serve except showing us that light was there?
I recently read the book Remarkably Bright Creatures, and it taught me something very important. It taught me that we can find hope in the things that feel mundane, that we can look for inspiration in the very places that we think are far from us and we don’t deserve.
In this book we meet Tova, a woman marked by quiet loss and quiet strength. Her life moves with routine, cleaning the local aquarium, folding laundry, missing her son. Nothing extraordinary happens. The grief feels like background music in a life that’s otherwise just... steady. And yet, it’s in this stillness this overlooked space of “just here” that something remarkable finds her. A giant Pacific octopus, of all things, becomes the vessel for connection, mystery, and healing.
An octopus who notices. Who remembers. Who sees what others don’t. This story reminded me that even the overlooked moments carry weight. That God can use unexpected vessels like sea creatures and silence to whisper truth and direction. That even when nothing drastic is happening, we are being shaped, we are being molded more like Him. He’s equipping us, he’s using us for His Glory. Isn’t that what matters? At the end of the day becoming, being, and living like Him? Tova wasn’t trying to become anything new. She was just showing up. But showing up turned into transformation. Not because she forced it, but because she allowed space for it. That’s what I’m learning too to allow space. To stop trying to make everything meaningful and instead be open to finding meaning in what already is.
Being off of social media has helped me with this because I can’t form an opinion on topics that are being spoon fed to me. I now have to research, I now have to use my critical thinking skills, I now have to depend on God more than ever for the answers.
What if you just took this moment to look around you and see the beauty in your everyday?
There is something beautiful there.
Let yourself write from the middle.
From the mundane.
From the moment that doesn’t feel like progress but is.
Ask yourself gently:
What fruit might be growing under the surface while I simply show up?
Where is God already moving in what feels still?
You don’t need clarity for it to be good.
You don’t need a platform for it to be purposeful.
You just need presence.
God meets us in the middle again and again.
And that is more than enough.
Take space here.
You’re not behind. You’re becoming.
— With you in it,
Dr. Kelsei 🤍
Welcome to The Inner Room: The inner room is designed for me to answer the questions that matter to you. This is a space for deep, intentional conversations. Sisters (that’s what I call the paid subscribers) can submit their questions but all the friends (that’s everyone) can read the responses and join in on the reflection.
Question from our sister Jalynn (she decided to say who she was):
"I've been feeling stuck in my healing journey. I know God is working, but sometimes it feels like I’m going around in circles. How do I stay present in the process when it feels like nothing is changing?"
I want to thank Jalynn again for being so transparent and sharing what she’s currently going through. I first want to ask a question, what are your current patterns? We can often feel like we’re going in circles because we’ve been caught in routine and not relationship. What does your day to day look like? It isn’t that something isn’t happening, it’s the fact that you can’t see what’s happening. I want to leave you with an insert of my new book that I think will help you:
I want you to imagine your soul (this is your mind, will, emotions) like a lake.
Still.
Deep.
Quiet.
Mysterious.
On the surface, everything might look peaceful your smile, your schedule, your social media. But beneath that surface? There’s a whole world hidden in the water. Things you didn’t even realize were sitting at the bottom. Somewhere in the layers of your soul, there are memories you’ve tucked away, emotions you never processed, and stories you tried to forget but that still live in the water even when you pretend, they don’t. You didn’t ask for it. You didn’t invite it. But there it is sitting at the bottom of your soul like debris from a shipwreck. Silent, but still shaping how you swim. If you’ve never slowed down long enough to look into your waters of your soul with honesty, then you may be living from a depth you’ve never even explored. What’s down there beneath the routine, beneath the daily grind, beneath the smile you wear so well is writing the story of your decisions, your reactions, and your sense of safety in the world. Here’s the thing: you can’t clean a lake just by skimming the surface. You have to go deep. You have to wade into the places you’d rather avoid. You have to sit with the murky water and ask, “Where did this come from? Who put this here? And why have I let it stay?” Healing doesn’t happen when we deny what’s in the water, healing happens when we invite God into the lake. When we let Him stir the depths, not to shame us, but to cleanse us.
Maybe your issue isn’t that things aren’t happening, but maybe you’re so focused on the doing, that you stopped just being. Allow him to use this moment. It’s worth it.
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